If You’re Feeling A Little Low on the Ho-Ho-Ho…
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Terri Wingham is the founder and CEO of A Fresh Chapter, a cancer survivor, and someone who believes that we are not defined by the most difficult aspects of our story. |
Maybe you can relate to that first moment of awareness. When you open one eye and search your dark bedroom for clues. You wonder why it’s so quiet. Did you forget to set your alarm? A rush of panic whistles into your gut. Then you remember…it’s Saturday.
You grin and burrow under your duvet as you leaf through the memory of your dream. You pick up the cell phone on your nightstand to call your lover, just so you can hear his scratchy morning voice. But as you continue your ascent into alertness, a bulldozer of pain grinds you under its thick tread. You remember that you can’t call. It’s over. Your stomach pulses, tears slip down to pool in your ears and you lie there, immobilized, as you try to process the reality of another day without him. (more…)
Comments (11)
Great post! You’ve got a couch waiting in Barrie should your travels ever bring you here! 🙂
Jenn – So nice to hear from you and I do hope my travels take me to Barrie sometime. I would love to see you. Big hugs, T xo
As usual…… beautiful! I don’t know where I will jump on your journey, but I will be there for one of the stops. For Sure.
Love to you….
xoxox
AnneMarie
Thank you lovely! So far I have India confirmed from Feb 11 – March 3rd and Rwanda confirmed from March 15 – 29th. Would love to have you join me. Will keep you posted on the other dates as they come together. Big hugs and love to you too. T xoxoxo
Honey, I am very low on the ho-ho-ho as Christmas approaches this year – in fact, I’d dearly love to cancel it entirely. Really found your post helpful xxx
Hi lovely,
Thanks for the note and I can only imagine how low you are feeling on the ho-ho-ho. Life is so tough sometimes. I would love to see you and give you a hug myself and I just might be able to do that. Looks like I will be in the UK between New Delhi and Rwanda in early March. Maybe I could come over to Ireland and work in a few days of volunteering there somehow so I can see you? Big love and light to you. xoxo
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Hi Terri,
I came across your blog after reading Marie’s weekly round up, I can relate to a lot of what you’re saying. I do have a (albeit rented) home & I have a 4 year old but, I still feel alone & I am jobless too….I too moved back to my home city (Liverpool) only in September &, whilst I am now closer to my family, I am finding it hard to adjust – not to the faster pace of life here (I moved back here from a small, remote village in the Welsh countryside) – but to the ‘new normal’ that we now have to face.
I haven’t had my reconstruction yet, I’m looking forward to it & dreading it at the same time; obviously I want it done but at the same time, it’s another bout of major surgery & another scar.
I’ll be 40 next May & can’t help feeling somewhat ‘washed up’ at the moment. I’m hoping these feelings pass with (more) time.
Thank you for your post though…..I no longer feel so alone after reading it.
I wish you all the best & let’s hope 2012 is a better year all round.
Lots of love, Chez. xx
Chez,
Thank you so much for your comment. It makes me feel better and less alone too, so I appreciate the mutual support of all of my new blogging friends. I can so relate to your feelings about the reconstruction and your new normal. It’s a tough, tough period. I wish you light for 2012 because cancer can create a whole lot of darkness! I may be in the UK in March as part of my upcoming trip around the world. Maybe we’ll have the chance to connect then:)
Big hugs to you!
T.
xo
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